What to do? What to do?
In 3 hours and 26 minutes I will officially be unemployed, but since I mailed my computer about 3 1/2 hours ago, I'm pretty well finished.
So...now what? I gave notice at Charlie's daycare this morning -- the most amazing daycare in the whole world, by the way -- and to be honest, that was just as traumatic as losing my job. We love that place and those wonderful ladies and will miss them all dearly.
At the same time, we put him right back on the waiting list, because if I do get another full time job, there is nowhere else we want him to be.
That said, we have no idea what we even want to happen, much less what is going to happen. We are very blessed to have many, many people praying for us, but we don't have any idea what we all should be praying for! I am sure that for some readers that is a shock -- but interestingly enough, I believe that many are shocked for precisely opposite reasons.
I know that many people are praying that Jason and I figure out a way and come to terms with the changes that will allow me to be a full-time stay at home mom, and I think that is a wonderful option for some people, but is it for us? I mean, if anything, Charlie is proof positive that daycare is not the road to perdition and "daycare kids" are not ill-adjusted and unloved.
At the same time, I know many people are praying that I find another full-time job that allows Charlie to stay in daycare, and that, too, is a wonderful option for some people -- but is this God giving me the push to stay home with him for a couple years? Because truly, for all of the "socialization" proponents, we know many families with kids who stay home and are not antisocial hellions (and neither are their moms).
Finally, there are the people that are praying that God gives Jason and me whatever solution we'd like. These prayers are very gracious, but I'm afraid they give us too much credit -- WE HAVE NO IDEA!!
So...here is my request. For any of you who happen to be praying for us or know people that are praying for us, please pray that God will grant us peace until He reveals His will to us, then the humility and wisdom to obey.
Thank you.
Swamp
